A Little Bit Of DIY

I had this post planned for ages, but for some reason things just didn’t work out. Work’s still a bore, my neurons are still suicidal, so nothing new there. However, feeling un-challenged and all has an upside; I’ve decided that I just ought to spend my off-work time by doing things that are fun and relaxing. It’s still a bit hard to get started, but I think I’m finally getting the hang of it :)

I’ve always enjoyed everything creative. Whether it’s writing, drawing, making music, cooking or even pottery, those kind of “projects”, as I like to call them, always get me in a great state of mind. I don’t know, there’s just something about that feeling when you’re totally focusing on “making” something, and don’t even get me started on the euphoria when it’s finally finished! So today, I’d like to share the outcome of one of my latest wannabe-creative outbursts. It all started… With a pair of boots:

Cute… But something’s missing, don’t you think? (Source)

Usually I don’t buy anything I’m not 100% excited about, but I just had this feeling I could do something with these boots and bought them. And in a sudden state of clearmindedness I decided that studs were the answer. Lots and lots of them! I bought a shitload off eBay (which is, next to Google, my best friend these days… Partly because it’s one of the few sites I can access from work, haha), sat down for an evening, and there they were… The boots that I really wanted:

Exit boring, hello rock ‘n roll!

All in all they cost me a few euro’s, a few hours, very painful fingers and despite totally ruining my manicure, I was pleased with my new, unique boots :) Small price, big change. So… What do you think of this transformation?

Since I’m finally doing something interesting (haha), I’ll probably be posting a bit more about my little projects, and whining about work a little less. I guess that’s progress, right? ;) And since I have a brand new camera (courtesy of le man, who’s been trying to get me to write again for quite a while and took away my excuse of having a crappy cam), there’s going to be a lot more pictures too. Yay! But please bear with me while I figure the damn thing out, lol.

I’m kind of looking forward to being back and doing something new here, and I hope you’ll like it as much as I probably will. It is a bit scary though, hence the “kind of” part, but I guess I’ll just have to get over that!

Aaaanyway… Thanks for reading, and I hope you’ve enjoyed.

Love,

ML-X

Flowless

Hey guys,

I know it’s been over a month since I’ve been around, and I’m sorry. I just couldn’t bear being here any more. I’ve lost my flow; I can’t seem to write anything proper down any more, so I decided to isolate myself a little, hoping it will come back in time. No luck so far.

The main reason I’m feeling so off is the job. I hate it. It’s so boring that it’s been killing me from the inside, turning me into some kind of zombie. Haven’t eaten any brains so far though, but who knows what lies ahead! Obviously, feeling like this isn’t helping anything in my personal life either. And if you can’t come home to something good after another awful day… Well, you can probably fill that in all by yourselves.

So here I am, stuck in a place I don’t want to be, both literally and figuratively.

I’ve been on the lookout for another job for a while now, but there isn’t all that much available that matches my qualifications. It’s all IT and marketing, and that’s really not my cup of tea. I guess I’ll just have to be patient, and hope my brain cells won’t die off by the time I find something else. But until then… Well, let me illustrate what’s happening to my brains currently:

Apoptosis & Necrosis

Yep, they are both being killed and killing themselves. Source: Stahl’s Essential Psychopharmacology. Neuroscientific Basis and Practical Applications – Third Edition – Written by Stephen M. Stahl.

This page is from a textbook I used during my final year of Biological and Cognitive Psychology, and it’s by far my favourite textbook of all time. Can you guess why?

Anyway… That’s all for now. I don’t know if I’ll be back any time soon, so let me finish this one by saying… I miss you guys.

Until… Whenever, if ever.

Love,

ML-X

Monday Motivation

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Just wanted to share my motivation for today with you guys :)

I totally forgot to tell you how lovely the last 2 weeks had been; big bad R. was on holiday! And work has never been so much fun. But as of today he’s back and ruining everybody’s mood again. Hence the reminder to use those muscles wisely!

There’s a story to the sparrow in the pic too; here in the Netherlands, there’s a saying “iemand blij maken met een dode mus”. Literally translated it means “to make somebody happy with a dead sparrow”, meaning… Putting something awesome in prospect, which turns out to be a huge disappointment (a.k.a. the dead sparrow). However, when you mix up the saying, you end up killing somebody with a happy sparrow. This once happened during lunch break (mixing up the saying, not the actual killing ;)), and has been an inside joke between us girls. N. (the one I mentioned had a stick up her ass back when I started on the job) worked a little Paint magic, and our happy sparrow, as you can see in the pic, was born. And I couldn’t have wished for a better illustration to the text!

Now let’s hope he’ll pick up the hint… ;)

Thank you for reading :)

Love,

ML-X

Annoyances: Part V – Can You Spare Some Change?

I don’t like beggars, I really don’t.  In a large city like the one I live in it’s not entirely unusal that they’re there, and if you spend a lot of time in the city centre you pretty much “know” all of them. But lately, it seems like there’s an invasion new ones, a kind of gypsies I think, and they’re freakin’ everywhere! Out on the street, on public transportation, in supermarkets, you name it and they’re there. And not all of them are actually “active” beggars. There’s one young woman, one of the new ones, who just sits there holding up a paper cup. All day.

Those people piss me off beyond belief. Feel free to think I’m a bad person for feeling that way, but I just want to go up to them and tell them to get a fucking job like normal people do. In fact, I think that might happen some time soon. Either that, or I’m going to have a career switch, because those people make *a lot* of money. My brother told me the other day that one of them, a creepy old lady, comes into the store he works at to exchange approximately €200,- worth of coins into bills. Can you believe that shit?

That woman is one of many beggars on my way home, so I guess I should be used to ignoring them, but I’m not. Yesterday, I had two encounters. The first one was with a familiar guy who’s a druggie, and I think he’s been around forever. He asked me and le man for some change, and I said “no, I’m sorry”. When the beggar left, my boyfriend asked me why in hell I said “sorry” in the first place (he just said “no”). To be honest, I don’t know. I guess it’s an automated response, because I say it every damn time, although I truly am not sorry.

The second encounter was a bit worse. It was on the parking lot of a supermarket, and we were on our way home when a woman on an electric scooter asked us for an euro. The way I see it, anyone on an electric scooter who isn’t an elderly, is a lazy piece of shit. Now I do have to nuance this a little, before y’all think I’ve completely lost my mind; there’s a specific kind of people who own these scooters. I think the best way to describe that type so that everybody understands what I mean is inbred white trash. They don’t work, live off welfare and reproduce like rabbits but don’t take the trouble to actually raise their children. And guess who pays for all those scooters they ride? Exactly…

Anyway, this particular specimen was on a scooter and wearing Nikes. Nikes, for fuck’s sake! I wanted to yell at her that she should get off her lazy ass and sell her freaking scooter so badly, but of course the only reply I had was “no, sorry”. After that I got into a rather funny discussion on the subject with le man, contemplating if it was a good idea to ask for a specific amount as opposed to leaving it open. I guess that’s the analyst in me, and it pairs very well with him being a marketing guy. We’d make the perfect beggar, haha!

The last few days have really left me wondering… Am I wrong in wondering why I should give out my hard earned cash to people who don’t even try to earn a living and/or buy drugs with it anyway? Am I a bad person for refusing to sponsor that shit? And, even more important, are the crazy gypsies going to curse my ass for refusing to spare some change?

What do you think?

Thanks for reading, I hope I haven’t bored you with this rant today!

Love,

ML-X

I Should’ve Known Better

I just finished my third week at the new job, and boy, how different it’s been from the previous two! In very short: I hated it. And as you may or may not have guessed, that has something to do with R..

The big bad R. finally showed his true colours this week, and I think it’s safe to say he’s in my top 3 of “biggest assholes I’ve ever met”. Hell, he might even outgrow that category if he keeps going on like he does!

So, what did he do to deserve this not-so-honourable title? There’s a few main reasons:

#1. He’s been treating me like a two-year-old. And by that I don’t mean he’s been nice and caring like one might be towards a toddler. Nope, his demeanor is more of a “you don’t know sh*t, missy” kind of thing. And it’s not just that, but he apparently gets off on making people feel worthless. He’s the best, and you’re waaaaay down somewhere, being a nasty piece of nothingness. There’s one “positive” aspect on this one though; he doesn’t just do it to me, but even to people who’ve worked at the company for over 40 years (and thus longer than him). It’s not much of a consolation, but it helps me to not burst out in tears every time he has a fit of arrogance.

#2. He’s been falsely accusing me and one of my colleagues, V., of changing up item properties in the system. On Wednesday he just came into our office, telling us that we’d made a mistake. No big deal, we’re both pretty new so mistakes can happen, right? Upon his explanation of the mistake -we confirmed the arrival of a product with a product number that didn’t correspond with the number in the system- I was already getting pissed off. It’s the exact same thing, apart from the factory’s item number. Book it in, and get the f*ck over it!

But of course, being the over-elaborate godlike creature he thinks he is, he goes on and on and on about it, telling my colleague to look up the product in the system. When she typed in the item number, it turned out the properties were changed in an incorrect way. And that’s where the accusations start. “One of us two” had to have done it, because nobody else would, and not that many people have the authorization to do so. But guess what? Neither me nor V. know how that shit’s supposed to be changed in the first place! And he should know that, because he’s never taken the time to explain it to us in the first place. Obviously, he didn’t think of that because how could he ever be wrong, right?

At that time, I was busy putting paperwork away into a way-too-full ordner, and my hands were itching to pick it up and smack him with it. On the head. Multiple times. Instead, I smiled my sweetest smile, and simply said “You have the authorization to change properties as well, right?”. Which brings us to…

#3. He looked at me like he saw water burning, and said “You need to get your time slips signed, don’t you?”. These time slips are weekly overviews of my hours, which I have to get signed at the office, and send to the employment agency, else I don’t get my pay. He freakin’ threatened me! “Luckily, you’re not the one who has to sign them”, I said, and forced myself to keep smiling, but my blood was boiling, and I actually even picked up the ordner, weighing it in my hands. Decided to put it back in its place (which wasn’t up his ass, I guess).

Luckily for me (and for him as well, but not for V.), he left me alone after that and focussed on V. entirely. I don’t know what I would have done if he’d uttered another word to me, and I didn’t have to find out because he didn’t come close to me for the rest of that day. Still, I was beyond pissed off, and my day was ruined. I even considered not coming back the next day, but then again, that’s not an option for me now.

The next day I had cooled down somewhat, and ran into him in the mail room. He started to rant again, and at one point said something about people disliking him, raising four fingers which indicated the four “downstairs” chicks I’ve been hanging out with the whole time, as if they’re the reason I could feed him to the crocodiles. I smiled, and said “No, it’s just this”, and raised one finger, indicating him. Again, he threatened me in his subtle way, telling me I should watch out what I say and to whom I say it.

I’m not a hateful person by nature, but this man brings out the worst in me. Fortunately, a colleague of mine explained that W., the man I had my interview with and is in fact my boss, is waaay higher up in the hierarchy. However, I still don’t get why R.’s still there, since he’s nothing more than an accountant. Give me some accountancy lessons and I’ll be happy to replace! In the mean time, I’ll do my darnedest best not to walk away – it’s not my style.

Thanks for reading and commenting once again! Any ideas on how to get rid of this man are welcome, by the way ;)

Love,

ML-X

For The Love Of… Shoes! – Part II

One of the “downsides” to my new job is that I have to go through town to get home. Pair that with getting off early, and you get a whole lot of temptation. Feel free to call me weak, but I can’t go through town without going into at least one store. Now I’m aware that going into a store is one thing and coming out with a purchase is another, but I tend to fail at both! However, this particular purchase I’ve managed to justify for myself, since I got them after my first day at the job: I got myself a present for getting through the day!

Ladies and, well, probably more ladies, I present to you the newest addition to my evergrowing shoe collection:

Gorgeous green goodness!

Gorgeous green goodness!

Not only did I fall in love with these suede booties and their wonderful colour upon sight, I was lucky enough to be able to get them in my size. This is oftentimes quite hard since I need a size EU36/UK3/US5, and those mostly come in only 1 pair per store. I guess you can imagine how extatic I was once I got my hands on these :)

I’ve been looking for a nice pair of cowboy style boots for years, so here they are. They’re even more beautiful in real life, and I wish I had a good pic of the details; the front stitching looks like a butterfly, and they’re accented with tiny copperish studs. On top of all that, they’re also insanely comfortable! There’s just one small thing: their colour gives me a bit of a hard time with implementing them in my outfits. Luckily, the majority of my wardrobe consists of black so it looks okay, but I really wish I could do something else with them as well. So any advice/thoughts/ideas are very welcome!

I got them in the clearance sale at the Tango store in The Hague, and I couldn’t find them in their web shop, so I’m not sure if it’s possible to get them elsewhere. Either way, I believe I snatched the last pair in that store anyway ;)

So what do you think? Yay or nay for green and/or western style boots?

Thanks for reading!

Love,

ML-X

EDIT: I made a small mistake regarding the store I bought the shoes in. It’s not Sacha, as I mentioned in the first place, but Tango.

All Work And No Play

Well… I guess that’s not entirely true. Somewhere between (still getting used to) work and football, I just can’t seem to manage to write anything down these days. Despite getting off of work pretty early, I’m entirely beat when I come home, and inspiration is very hard to find. I’m hoping it’s just temporary, but I’ve toyed with the thought to give up the blog entirely.

Work in itself is fun though, and all of the foreseen problems haven’t come up (yet). In fact, I’ve even noticed that I like R., as opposed to… Well, the rest of the company. And the chick-with-the-stick has been quite okay as well.

All in all, I don’t have anything to complain (yet, haha), apart from the fact that I don’t have the mind to hang out here. And it’s not just the not writing part, but I also haven’t been reading on a daily basis. In fact, I haven’t been reading since last Sunday! My daily routine is now “get up, coffee, go to work, work, go home, eat (or not), couch yoga, sleep”, and I feel like I’m a hundred years old. I do hope it will pass soon, but until it does (or until I decide to call it quits) I hope you’ll be patient with me and my “weekends only” here.

Until then, and if nothing else, thanks for the last few months.

Love,

ML-X

A New Beginning

So… Today was my second day at my new job. And I have to say, so far, I’m enjoying it! The first day was pretty standard; meeting everybody and failing at remembering all the names and departments, getting a small tour through the company and all that. Hell, I didn’t even have a desk or PC for myself yet! In fact, they didn’t quite know what they were going to do with me, so I spent the rest of the day just looking at what another girl was doing. Today, however, was much better; I started early (7:30am), confiscated a desk/PC combo for myself and simply… Worked. Did I master what the part-time receptionist girls have been working on for the last month in just one day? Yes, I did. Yay me!

To be honest, I had expected to have a hard time learning to work with their system. I’ve worked with two different ones in my previous job, so I’ve got the basics, but I didn’t expect to encounter anything like their system: the supermegaoldschool, IBM’s MS-DOS inspired AS/400! I couldn’t believe my eyes. Goodbye tabs, goodbye overview, goodbye interpunction, goodbye colours, and hello black-and-green blast from the past. Hey, the 80’s called…

But like everything else, even this oldfashioned thing has its pro’s: the functionality is so limited, that it’s actually pretty hard to fuck something up! So I guess that’s a good thing :) Plus, the damn thing has a “reset” button. Probably just because that old stuff crashes way too much, but it’s still kind of awesome.

As for my colleagues… Well, the fifties called for most of them, if you catch my drift… But they’re fun, don’t take themselves too seriously, and of course I’m impressed by the ridiculous amounts of knowledge most of them have. So all good! Even the “downstairs” girls are okay, except for one, but she’ll have to take that stick out of her ass by herself. I’m there to work and learn, not to make friends.

Today, I did learn why people might dislike R.. Don’t get me wrong, he’s a nice enough guy, but seriously, I get it. After I kinda figured out their system wasn’t up to date at all (being based on, for example, purchase prices from 2005!), I proposed to enter all the new prices that we got from orderconfirmations, so that at least those things wouldn’t make a mess any more. He then spent two hours telling me exactly the same. He could have just agreed, but nooo, that would be too easy. So instead, despite telling me numerous times already that he hardly has time for his own work, he wastes more time telling me what I already know. But I’ll just keep listening, because I’ve already figured out yesterday that he knows *a lot*. And he’s willing to show me, even if it’s none of my concerns. So as long as he keeps feeding my hunger for knowledge, I’ll play along.

In short, I’m having a good time over there. And I think there’s a good chance that I’d like to spend a few years there. There is one little downside though; I’ve been “out of rhythm” for a while now, so by the time I get home, I’m dog tired! So I’m off to do some couch yoga now, but I’ll try to write (and read) as much as I can nevertheless :)

Thanks for sticking with me!

Love,

ML-X

Jobhunt: Final

I promised I’d tell you a little about my job interview last wednesday, so here goes. I do have to warn you, it’s going to be a long post!

I had the appointment at 9:30am, and since it was close to where I used to live, finding the place wasn’t hard at all – think that’s worth some bonus points. Since I was early, I had to wait at the reception for a little bit. They had a couch there, so I took a seat… And almost immediately regretted it. The couch was so soft that I felt like my butt had hit the floor, and despite my lack of height, my legs were hovering above the floor. I felt a panic coming up; how the hell was I supposed to get up without looking like a turtle on its back?

After a little while, a tall, older-looking man came up to me (we’ll call him W. for now), and I tried to get up as elegantly as possible and hopelessly failed. He led me into a small, dark-ish meeting room, and left again to get us something to drink. The wallpaper in the room immediately caught my eye, it was a dusty rose colour and it looked velvety, and it took me all my willpower to stop myself from getting up and touching it. It was sheer torture!

I was obviously glad when W. finally came back with our drinks, and after he put them on the table he said “You’re probably wondering where I got this tan?”. In all honesty, I hadn’t really thought about his tan (else I’d described him as tall, tanned older-looking man), but now that he pointed it out, well, he did have a nice tan! “I’ve spent the weekend sailing. Look, this is my boat!”, and he pointed to one of the boats on a company poster. I knew from my “research” that they were involved in sailing, but I didn’t expect that employees would be on the boats too!

He talked a little more about the sailing, then sat down, gave me his card and said “I’m not from Human Resources, I have no idea how a job interview is supposed to go, so let’s just exchange some info”. I glanced at the card, and saw that he was the vice president of the company, so I decided to share my opinion with him and said “Well, HR people usually don’t have any clue on what the job is and which requirements are really needed, so I guess you’ll do a better job at it anyway”. This could’ve gone completely wrong, I know, but I had decided to just be myself all the way and luckily he could appreciate my way of thinking.

W. started off by drawing an organization chart for me, after which he told me a little bit about every department. The “big boss” P. was 67 years old, and owned two villas. The next “layer” were three main departments; Administration, Realization and Sales. W. himself was in charge of the Sales department, R. was the main man in Administration, and I’d fall under Realization, led by G. The organization isn’t too hierarchic, which I liked a lot.

Of course, since I came on interview for the Purchase Department, the rest of the story mostly focussed on that. W. told me that they used to have a real Purchase Department, but it had “fallen apart” and basically, the Sales people were just ordering things with the suppliers. I could hardly believe it! Don’t get me wrong here, Sales people are fun. But they just have very different skills from Purchase folk. So the whole administration part of the Purchase Department was a shitmess, and that’s where R. comes into the picture. R., being Main Admin Man and accountant, doesn’t like administrational mess at all. And I can’t blame him; everything has to be right before he can and will pay the bills. Inconsistencies are a huge no-no, and have to be solved. Which is not a forte of Sales Departments, obviously.

I told W. how I always worked very closely to the accountant in my previous job, just to show that I knew the importance of “check, check, triple check” and proper agreements with the suppliers. He seemed to be very impressed, and started telling me a little about R. You see, R. is a little… Special. He’s very sceptical about everybody, and thinks he knows everything better. Some might call him an asshole (pardon my French), but I decided to call him a challenge instead. Especially after W. told me that their previous Purchase guy left after 8 years because of R., and the replacement they had left after one day with R..

W. thought I might have some trouble with R. too, because I came across very confident of my skills, and R. doesn’t like know-it-alls, despite being the king of them. I was actually very pleased he said that, because I’m usually not that confident at all. It’s just that I know the job, and I figured that there’s a snowball’s chance in hell I’d make their non-existent department even worse. Add to that that R. has been working there for approximately 25 years (which is all my life!), and I have next to no knowledge of their company and the products, and voilà; I have no reason at all to be arrogant. Plus, my parents have raised me very well; I wouldn’t dare disrespect an elder, no matter what. I am, however, confident enough to think that I might even be able to impress R. at some point in time.

There was another problem W. predicted I’d have: the Front Desk girls. Every time there’s a job opening “upstairs”, they want to apply, so they probably won’t be all too pleased with me. That actually scared me more than R.’s attitude; I really don’t like mean girls, that’s a huge weak spot for me. I do understand why they’d dislike me; I’m around their age and they get surpassed despite doing a great job downstairs (although there was one ramming on her iPhone and sighing really hard whenever the office phone rang, I’d surpass that unmotivated mess too). I really hope I’ll be able to make them see that it’s just my experience with the work, and that I didn’t mean to screw anybody over.

After an hour or so of talking and laughing a lot, W. asked me if I maybe had the time to stay a little longer because he wanted me to meet R. and G. too. I told him I had all the time in the world, so he went to get them and… Left me alone with ’em! That scared the shit out of me, because I’d had to win them over now, too, and knowing R.’s problem with people… I lost all the confidence I had. Luckily, they were just asking a lot of questions, on how I got to my previous job, and why I’d left, and why I didn’t end up working in the field of Psychology and all that. I did have the idea they were more sceptical, but I made them laugh a few times so I figured maybe I had a chance anyway.

R.’s main concern was that I might be too “commercial”, and easily bored with the job there because it’s not as dynamic as my previous one. Personally, I liked that “boring” aspect because that would mean it’s less easy to make a huge mess, especially when there’s a lot of cleaning up to do in the first place. There are a lot of things that I wouldn’t have to do any more, but I don’t mind that at all. And it doesn’t have to be boring; I know I’ll have a blast learning about all their stuff, and since they have over 20.000 products that should keep me busy for a while :) In a way, a job is not unlike life; it’s just what you make of it.

Another hour later, we were finished. W. came over, and I asked if they’d maybe have an indication on when they’ll know if it’s yes or no. G. answered: “Well, it’s Wednesday today, so you’ll know by Friday”, and I told them that I was impressed because some companies need 2 weeks to figure that stuff out, which made them laugh again. I thanked R. and G. for their time, and said something silly like “maybe until next time”. W. said he’d walk me out, and on our way downstairs he mentioned that he’d heard us laugh a lot. I figured that was a good thing, and decided to tell him that this was the longest, but by far most fun job interview I’ve ever had. I thanked him for his time as well, and went on my way.

When I finally got home (after taking a little detour through town), I called my mom to tell her about the interview. I had the feeling it had gone very well, but of course you never know. So I guess you can imagine my surprise when I got the phone call the same day! I went to sign the contract on Thursday, and I’m still super excited, and really looking forward to Monday. Let the games begin!

I hope I haven’t bored y’all too much with this lengthy post ;) Thanks for reading and have a wonderful weekend! -I know I will :)

Love,

ML-X

Monday; I’m Looking Forward To It

Quite a while ago I mentioned that I don’t like Mondays that much. But this time, I’m actually looking forward to it. You know why? Because next Monday, I’m starting my new job! I had the job interview yesterday morning, and I got a call from the employment agency at 5pm, telling me the good news. So in a couple of hours I’m off to sign my contract at the agency :)

There’s a lot I wanted to tell you about the interview and all, but I’m going to have to keep it short for now because I am so extatic I can’t really think straight ;) And I still haven’t really celebrated, was so tired yesterday – in fact, I was taking a nap when the employment agency called me! I have to say it’s the best wake up call I’ve had in a long time. Anyway, I hope I’ll be able to do all that in the next few days :)

Thanks for reading :)

Love,

ML-X