Hey guys,

I know it’s been over a month since I’ve been around, and I’m sorry. I just couldn’t bear being here any more. I’ve lost my flow; I can’t seem to write anything proper down any more, so I decided to isolate myself a little, hoping it will come back in time. No luck so far.

The main reason I’m feeling so off is the job. I hate it. It’s so boring that it’s been killing me from the inside, turning me into some kind of zombie. Haven’t eaten any brains so far though, but who knows what lies ahead! Obviously, feeling like this isn’t helping anything in my personal life either. And if you can’t come home to something good after another awful day… Well, you can probably fill that in all by yourselves.

So here I am, stuck in a place I don’t want to be, both literally and figuratively.

I’ve been on the lookout for another job for a while now, but there isn’t all that much available that matches my qualifications. It’s all IT and marketing, and that’s really not my cup of tea. I guess I’ll just have to be patient, and hope my brain cells won’t die off by the time I find something else. But until then… Well, let me illustrate what’s happening to my brains currently:

Apoptosis & Necrosis

Yep, they are both being killed and killing themselves. Source: Stahl’s Essential Psychopharmacology. Neuroscientific Basis and Practical Applications – Third Edition – Written by Stephen M. Stahl.

This page is from a textbook I used during my final year of Biological and Cognitive Psychology, and it’s by far my favourite textbook of all time. Can you guess why?

Anyway… That’s all for now. I don’t know if I’ll be back any time soon, so let me finish this one by saying… I miss you guys.

Until… Whenever, if ever.




9 responses to “Flowless

  1. Haha thats awesome. I hope you feel better soon though, and if you ever need someone to cheer you up when you get home I can still do that you know ;).
    I hope everything gets better with broke-az. Hahaha. Also work… but thats slightly harder to fix. Keep posting i like reading!

    • Thank you :) My tummy starts aching when I remember our last encounter, hahaha. Should meet up again soon.
      I hope things will sort themselves out, either way I’ll try to get back to posting more regularly.

  2. Glad to hear from you but so sorry about your circumstances. I truly understand feeling like your brain is not working properly; I’ve been experiencing the same exact thing and I feel quite desperate for it to end. Which it will, by the way, for you and for me. Thank you so much for visiting my blog a couple days ago. It meant a lot to me. I’m way behind on replying to my comments and not really sure I will ever get caught up. Hang in. There is a reason for you being where you are at. Much love.

    • Linnea, I’m so happy to hear from you again! And I’m very sorry you’re in the same mental state as I am. But you’ve been through a rough patch lately, so it’s not all that strange. I firmly believe you’ll be back to your old self soon. What doesn’t kill us makes us stronger, right? And I couldn’t agree with you more; there’s always a bigger reason for why things are the way they are. Take care, dear. Love.

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